Things in life have a tendency to pile up and then come raining down on us at unforgiving times. We move through the sludge quickly/slowly/gracefully/ugly. It’s still the journey, no matter how long it takes us to get there and whatever missteps we take along the way. We pick up the lessons needed along the way, then when that leg of the journey is over, its time to let that shit go. Free it from holding us down and clouding our mind. Let’s make room for the next pile up that’s surely going to come.
Such easy advice; just let it go! I am hearing myself, but I have held onto terrible things that continue to hold me back. I’m still trying to shake these old lessons that no longer serve a purpose. When I was a child I struggled endlessly to read and write. It was clear to me that other students were brighter. Forced to work with a reading specialist, I was pulled out of my class every day during a certain time. I could feel the eyes of the other students on me when I left the classroom, tail tucked between my legs. Recently I looked through my old report cards and I saw was this loud message: Needs Improvement. It was marked in almost every category for several years.
Like a herded animal, I was grouped with other students who struggled in school. The expectations that the educational system had for me were low, so why should I try to push myself or achieve something that was clearly out of my grasp? As an adult I’m coming to terms with the stigma that plagued me.
Today, I am going to let that shit go. I still struggle to read words that are new to me and my spelling and grammar are border line chaotic. I’m going to let go of my old stigma and embrace my quirks as a writer. Some will still judge me because of my IQ or ridicule me because I put a stupid comma in the wrong, place. They don’t hurt me anymore, I am letting it go.
When I do publish my first book, I most certainly will hire a professional editor. I have taken a lesson with me on this journey: Ask for help where needed and know my limitations. This makes me smart though, not dumb. This weekend I’m going to burn my old report cards and do a little hippy dance. I hope you are able to let something go that no longer serves you too.
Quote Challenge 3 Days: Day 2
Thank you Sarishboo for the quote challenge. Sorry to anyone offended by a little swear, I try to keep my blog clean but this quote, though cheesy, speaks to me. Photo Credit.
Let That Shit Go
– Not Buddha (I’m pretty sure)
- Thank the person who nominated you.
- Post a quote for three consecutive days (1 quote for each day)
- Share why this quote appeals so much to you
- Nominate 3 different bloggers for each day
Here is who I nominate, no pressure to participate. These are blogs I discovered early and always enjoy going back to. Keep it up my friends!